Still Singen!

Sister Berry and I making green eggs for the institute! The Germans thought we were crazy! Happy St. Patrick’s Day!
The YW in our ward did a beauty night with us and look at my nails! so fun!
Spring is beginning, it’s so beautiful here!
Beautiful place I get to live in !
It’ just so beautiful here!

I don’t know if I can describe the feelings oen gets as a missionary. Maybe it’s just this overwhelming hyper huge scale of feeling. Some moments are hard. Really hard. The people you have been teaching reject you, and all of the blessings they have seen and all of the things that you hold so precious and know will help them feel god’s love for them and eventually have eternal life. This week that happened with Lovet. She wasn’t keeping her commitments and she told us she’d rather not learn more from our church. It it’s sad for us because we are still so invested in helping her and know that she will see more blessings, truth and love when she follows Christ and joins the church. Still, we know she will find it someday and at least we gave hera glimpse of what we know. BUT THEN, most moments are great. Really, really great. They make it all worth it. You feel the Saviour’s love pulsing through you to every person you speak to. You get an affirmation in your heart that even those who have rejected you have learned something or felt something or have been somehow helped by what you do. You are allowed to share the love of God literally as a vessel in a very strong and real way. You bring miracles to pass, you change lives, you just serve God. This week we went finding a lot. That means a lot of miracles and a lot of rejection. A few miracles we saw were, as usual, unorhtodox. As we were ringing one house, we found a member ( we forgot she lived there) and she had just gotten out of the hospital that week. She really needed a visit. She wasnt able to say much, but we shared a word of prayer and talked with the family. They were able to come to church that Sunday. Another one was surely an answer to the Elder’s prayers (LOL). We rang a full building of doors. One person let us in (of like 20). We thought it was the top floor, so we run up to the top only to find the door closed and the equivalent to a no soliciting sign that told us to go away. Confused, we slowly made our way down the stairwell, when the floor below called for us. We started talking to the woman at the door and then suddenly, in English, she said, ” Are you the mormons” I kind of stuttered and said, ”That is a spitzname.. oh or nickname for us..” She said, ”Oh, okay! Cool. My husband, John is learning with the mormons right now.” So we go into the apartment and find John! A guy who the elders have been teaching but he was about to take a pause from learning becuase he and his ”wife” aren’t officially married and he wasn’t willing to move out or get married. It is a super tough situation, but God’s laws are clear. It would be worse for him to make a promise with God if he is not keeping the comandments described in the scriptures and as the missionaries teach them. John was very secretive about where they lived and scared to introduce his family to the missionaries. We got on really well with his girlfriend and the family, we joked with them, talked with them and shared a short message before leaving, stunned. That night we called the elders and they were so excited. We don’t know for sure what will happen to the family or how big of a difference that might have made, but we know God has a plan for that lovely family. We also got to work more with Beauty Suday. She is doing great things. She is learning to read, coming to church every week and listening to us every week. She is battling a lot right now with her past. In Africa someone harrassed her and really left a mark on her. He was a part of a church there and just really scarred her memories of baptism and church, but we are helping her feel God’s love and the healing power of the atonement and she is slowly healing and getting ready to make more steps toward her Heavenly Father! Christiana is doing just fine! She is excited to be progressing and reading a lot more in the Book of Mormon. She really identifies with Nephi, one of the first people we meet in the story, who is standing strong although his brothers are disobeying and making life really painful for him (physically and emotionally). This week we also spent some time with a Young Woman in our ward. She is such a lovely girl and a great example. She invited us over to have a Beauty Night with two of her friends who do not go to our church. We got to know them really well and they are such fun girls! We painted nails, talked about the church dance they’d be going to the next night, and a part of that was the Tree of Life in Lehi’s dream. She initiated the gospel conversation and was so amazing. I just want to thank all the strong young women out there! You are all so great. I have been so blessed by your examples. It is not easy to go through life with such opposition, hardships and temptations all around you. All I can say is I know that no matter what the fight is worth it. If you lean on Heavenly Father and never let Him get out of your sight, He will never ever let you down. I know that. It’s worth it! I am reminded of Mormon, who was all alone in his fight, or so he felt. He is a prophet at the end of the Book of Mormon and all of his people are wicked, they’re killing one another and fighting and just totally forgetting that Jesus was just there with them and what He said. Mormon, still, tries his best and does what’s right. He keeps the plates (later to be the Book of Mormon) safe and raises a righteous son in a seemingly impossible circumstance. He dies, probably feeling like he let a lot of people down. But we have the Book of Mormon because in part of him. It has changed my life and so many lives. In addition, because he was so focused on saving the life of his people, and he worked with God the whole time, he was surely saved. I am so grateful for him and for each of you. It’s not easy, but who said it would be? It’s right and it’s worth it! Love you all! Sister Smith

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